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Victor Hayden - interview by Kevin Delaney
The following interview - Roses and Thorns - originally appeared on the website called The Victor Hayden Experience. It disappeared from the web a few years ago. I think the interview was conducted around 2000.
Luckily I took a text copy of it and can reproduce it here:
Kevin Delaney: When did you start painting?
Victor Hayden: I think I started painting around 7. I dont know why I have that number in my head, except that I like the imagery of 7. It was 7 or maybe younger. I realized then that I was absolutely obsessed with being an abstract expressionist. I was overwhelmed by the New York school of painting. My favorite of course being the least recognized to this day unfortunately, Franz Kline, who was known for his large black and white pieces, almost Japanese in their understated power. That really moved me, and that became my life goal and my priority, to the degree that I was obsessed on a cellular level with painting. I basically at that point realized that that would be the reason for staying on the planet in this incarnation.
Its evolved to where I am now, and Ive somehow survived this long, through many nightmares. Its very difficult to die every day. Basically that has been part of a daily thing for me, and Ive also been able to paint at the same time, which is quite a bit to do in a day. And Ive been doing it for about thirty years.
KD: Despite the occasional bit of major recognition, such as
the Absolut Vodka ad, you've mostly kept yourself apart from the world
of galleries and contemporary art. What's your take on the art world?
Hayden: There were a few years where I detested anything to do with art. I still do, to be frank with you. In terms of the traditional galleries, higher-than-thou, full of ones own shit to the degree that you cant see beyond yourself, the lack of the ability to recognize the capacity to remain a witness to your own script really pisses me off.
I love everyone, and god bless everyone, but Id just as soon gut everybody that has anything to do with art. I see no reason in going through somebody elses eyes to show my work. But it is also a wonderful thing to have a wall that somebody has established that I can put my paintings on and the run-of-the-mill or the mainstream flow of traffic will go in to see it because it says gallery. And Im very appreciative of that.
Really, I dont feel any connection with anything at all. I dont
feel any connection with anything or anyone. I have moments where I
feel very attached to certain moods, but at the same time forgetting
how quickly a mood can change. Forgetting how they present the illusion
of permanence and will not change is devastating. Getting rid of of
what doesnt matter in the composition is just a
wonderful thing to accomplish. My only goal is to make people laugh
and to scare them. I just want people to enjoy the work. Theres
nothing hidden going on, theres nothing intellectual going on.
Theyre basically just primitive, almost sub-human images that
I do out of necessity. Its really a selfish thing that I do. If
someone enjoys seeing them, its a wonderful thing.
KD: I noticed that you don't sign your paintings.
Hayden: People ask, Why dont you sign them? For the sake of the composition. So you dont want to see your name on there? Thats right, I dont. If you dont know that I did it well I guess I didnt do my job, right? I had a dramatic change, a vision of how I needed to paint, and I changed dramatically, in a day. Its almost like I had brought it back to life, meaning that I had been into a similar view many years ago. All of my work I think has an obvious connection, even my abstracts. You can see that its my work if you really look at it. Its not hidden and difficult.
I hope theyre almost edible and organic, that theyre very
transient and not precious. And yet they are truly life-threatening,
and Ive given my life to them, so they are of the utmost importance
and value, beyond paint. But then again I dont want them to be
perceived that way. I mean, you should
wear German latex surgical gloves when even getting near them, thats
my preference. Or white cotton gloves, 100% white unbleached cotton
from Egypt, that would be my goal when handling them. Theyre that
precious. But on the other hand its okay if a little animal decides
to walk across them and create a tunnel of excrement. I wouldnt
mind. When it comes to a fellow creature like a
human being or someone thats learning to walk upright and has
a vertical urge, then I would be leery of even thinking about it. Which
is terrible, I dont mean to sound negative towards what I am,
but I really do feel that way. Id just as soon see everyone go
away. Permanently. Get off this planet now.
KD: Including yourself?
Hayden: Oh yeah, quite often. I think it should all be snuffed
out. I vacillate between wanting to do everything I can to preserve
Mother Earth and at other times I feel that the only goal is to proceed
with the destruction of the planet and move forward as soon as possible.
In other words just a burned-out, charred remains. I think that would
be an interesting focus, as opposed to saving the
whales and saving the humans, and all the other bumper stickers you
see around. Maybe just let the things survive that have survived, the
beautiful roaches and the rats. Just a planet of those two guys hanging
out would be nice. I mean, they have survived it all.
KD: Who knows what they could evolve into? Or if they could mate...
Hayden: I was just going to say that, you read my mind. I think to encourage them mating would be a real positive beginning.
KD: These environmental themes are evident in your paintings, for instance the devil stepping on the sunflower, holding the candle...
Hayden: Which is a petroleum product. Hopefully its playful and not too heavy-handed. I detest anything that even hints at being politically correct. Whoever even came up with that phrase should be hung upside-down and gutted in a public arena, left there to dry properly, then sculpted into a garbage can. I really am more fond of the 30s and 40s imagery, the time when nature seemed to be what people reflected off of more than now, and I try to incorporate that into the feeling, by the people and the objects. I have certain paintings that are only objects, which I am very fond of. Im trying to incorporate that inanimate or supposedly unanimated object with a living, breathing person suffering from that vertical urge, trying to defy gravity. At the same time, having the heaviness of the load of an art deco steam iron coming at you at about 500 miles an hour, and trying to dodge that. To me, thats the idea of a good painting.
Zooming into the pure colors that I use, the real pure opaque, hard to reproduce colors that I use, layer upon layer to get it more dense, that kind of color, only going to the meat department in a large supermarket, focusing in on that, and instead of fresh-cut animals under stretched cellophane, they would be chrome-plated circa 1951 ice cream scoops of freshly-ground houseflies. Steaming. Because they are still warm from the grinder, with the cellophane stretched over them so you get those little drops of moisture underneath. Now that to me is a beautiful image. Thats worth getting out of bed for in the morning.
KD: Is this an image you want to create in your art?
Hayden: Yes, that is something that would motivate me to get up and paint.
KD: Why?
Hayden: Just the fact that somebody had taken over the meat department and decided that was the necessary thing to put on display for that days shoppers. For the door buster sale. Cant you just see them holding onto their hats in the wind trying to get to the meat department...
KD: And theyd probably buy it, too.
Hayden: Oh, yeah. And steal it. Big purses opening up, all those metal clasps going off at the same time. I got mine!
KD: How would you define art?
Hayden: Lets see. . . Well . . . I dont know. I really dont. In fact, what does the word mean, in terms of its origins?
KD: It could be anything.
Hayden: It could be somebodys robe, the way it dragged across the dirt in Jerusalem.
Seriously, there is an answer for that. I want to be really corny, because I love corny things. I think its in the eye of the beholder. I love that cliche. Art is very personal, and yet its one of the only universal things that exists. That and music. Art meaning painting, if were referring to painting. I just think its a big struggle. Its very difficult to put something in a one-dimensional space on a flat surface, and have it really reflect light the way you want it to. I think thats the goal, to get it to reflect back to other people accurately. I guess just to be stirred up emotionally is the reason for doing it. To hopefully break up patterns, and to create new patterns.
KD: Youve described yourself as an outsider. How do you think this perspective has affected your work?
Hayden: Ive worked on intensifying my perception, my capacity to go beyond the surface, specifically with people, because of not wanting to be gutted by them. I try to incorporate all the possibilities that exist with each image that I put there. Whether its an inanimate object, or has the illusion of it. You know molecular vibration never stops, everything is vibrating and moving. It just gives the illusion of being solid. So whether its a piece of rope or a piece of hand, to me it all vibrates on a similar but different level, and I like to combine those elements. I think that when I become the thing, the rope or the hand, or the flower or the child, I think thats the only way to really observe it properly. But then its also nice to look at it from a distance. I try to incorporate every possible view, every possible shadow that it may cast from every possible angle that a person may observe it from, whether its through the eyeballs or the brain.
On any level whatsoever I try to cover that possibility and include that so you can really see every possibility that exists, whether youre aware of it or not. So thats the goal of being a witness. But also being a witness to the witness is a necessity, by becoming the thing that Im painting. I become that which I want to paint, and then I detach myself from the thing that Ive just become so I can walk around it, or fly around it, and have every possible view that it is, could be, or may have been. And then I try to paint it with paints and a paintbrush on the surface of usually paper or canvas.
KD: Certain images recur in your work, the amputated legs...
Hayden: Or ice-cream sticks. They could simply be beautiful second-growth unfinished pine ice cream sticks.
Some of the people, their limbs have been rounded off instead of having traditionally formed legs and feet. That is true. That is really only for the compositions sake. Only because I think its a more beautiful image. I like rounded edges. If I need a rounded edge, it doesnt matter if its a human beings leg. If necessary Ill eliminate their head completely. Amputation, decapitation. . . Visiting the guillotine to get the composition down properly, theres no problem. I just say, Stand in line, I want to see a curve there. Thats the beauty of it. So off go their heads. Let them eat cake.
KD: The image of the bees. . .
Hayden: I love insects. Bees especially Im very fond of. I think they really have the answers that were looking for. Absolutely. In their lifestyle. I think its really something we should try to mimic. I just think they function very well. They make lots of beautiful tasty sweet honey thats very good for you. You can basically live on that. They know what they were born to do, and they stick to it. They dont get in the way of each other. A drone is a drone, and its good to know youre a drone and you ought to just do that for your life and just stay out of the way of others that arent drones. I really do believe in that. I think people should find out what they were born to do and do it. Its all equally important, in other words.
What I really think about them is that they are very beautiful. And I like the fact that they can sting you.
KD: Even though the bee dies when it stings you.
Hayden: I know. But its worth it, isnt it? I really dont see any reason in picking the rose when you can pick the thorn. I think the thorns are far more beautiful than the rose.
The white space to me is even more important than the image on it. That is the very challenging part. Its quite easy to fill up a surface with a lot of images, isnt it? But to only have the right ones there at the right time, that is definitely hard to do. My goal is to have it work both ways, to have both areas equally important. I dont think that one should outweigh the other. Its really a balancing act.
Just by changing one half-inch of something thats a mile in diameter,
you will then have to go and change the entire rest of the mile to compensate
for that. It is such a delicate balance. It is really microscopic at
times.
KD: Some of your works have titles or captions . . .
Hayden: Sometimes it just looks so lovely there. The type, the hand-printed lettering so primitively done, I think it just adds to the feeling.
KD: Theyre almost like pages from a childrens alphabet book, A is for . . . B is for . . .
Hayden: I did a series of paintings called The Alphabet Series. That was the first thing that got me back into this style of painting. Like big pages out of a book. People said Oh, you mean an alphabet book for adults? No, not for adults. For anybody. I try to do stuff that appeals to everybody, but really my target is children.
KD: Certainly there are a lot of child-like themes in your work.
Hayden: Children respond to my work better than so-called adults,
whatever that is. Children spend more time looking at my work than their
parents do. Then that gets into the whole question of whats an
adult, are you talking about state of mind or evolution or karma. .
. I just think that children really seem to appreciate it. They know
what I mean. Thats important to me, that reinforces
that Im on the right track. They really know, theyre not
fucked up yet. They havent been conditioned and told how to see
things.
KD: If a child likes something, theyll say I like
it. If not, they wont look at it.
Hayden: Theyre totally honest. Theyre my critics.
KD: The image of the masks . . .
Hayden: Theyre just beautiful things that I see. All of those things are things I see or want to see. If I cant see them, Im going to paint them so I can see them. That drives me, satisfying my urge to see certain things happen. I can only wait so long. You know you can die waiting for things to come around like that. How long do I have to wait before the bees get into the position where theyre able to move these masks around at will and basically take over and animate these supposedly unanimated objects such as a mask. So instead of waiting to see that, which I havent seen yet, I decided to paint them. Theyre just things that I love to see. Very basic reasons.
KD: Why do you love to see them?
Hayden: Its like eating. Its more important than food, its life.
KD: What about the long black spikes or spears?
Hayden: Theyre mounted. Theyre severely mounted in the heaviness of the load of the substance theyve attached themselves to. Theyre looking for a sense of stability, and of course it happens to be casting a shadow that day because theres some source of light. But basically theyre just doing what they need to do. They were basically born to do this, and I was born to capture it and show it to you. I was fortunate to be witness to them doing it, and I was able to capture that on the canvas. I feel very happy that they would allow me to share that experience with them long enough to project it. To have a view into the unconscious world of molecules is the icing on the cake.
Certainly nothing is more important than anything else, unless you decide that it is, right? It probably isnt any more important to live than it is to die. Everything in between, I dont know what it is. I guess its either fun or its pain. Preferably pain. I think we can learn more from pain.
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